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Have you ever been so enthusiastic about a new goal, put all your efforts into achieving it - only to find yourself falling short of its accomplishment? The worst part of it all, is that the more frequently this happens, the more you start to doubt yourself. After a string of failed attempts, you begin to actually believe that you are a failure and can't do anything right. Before you know it, you have given up on yourself.

BTC Week 2 - Progress Photo 

Stats

Weight - 155 lbs

Body fat - 13.32%

Right arm - 13 3/4"

Left arm - 13 1/2"

Waist - 30"

Emotions

Strong emotions have been surfacing these past few days.  I feel less patient with things.  It's almost like, I want to fix the things that I don't like.  If something is left undone, I get antsy and do it right away.  I am in the process of moving to a new apartment and I find that I am taking care of things immediately as they come up.  For example, washing the dishes as soon as I am done with them.  Sweeping and vacuuming the floor when it gets dirty.  Doing my laundry as soon as there is a load.

Racing thoughts

I had trouble sleeping last night.  I woke up after sleeping for three hours and couldn't get myself to fall asleep again.  For the next 3 hours or so, my mind was racing.  It was as if I had just taken a shot of espresso or something.  The thoughts were really deep, clear and vivid.  I remember telling myself, let me focus on an issue and see if my mind can come up with a solution.  However, I had trouble focusing on topics for a period of time.  It was like I had a short term attention span.  My mind would wander freely on its own.  So I stopped trying to focus it and just observed my thoughts.  I got to say, I was impressed with the clarity of my thoughts.

I'm interested in seeing, should these types of mental clarity continue, if I'll be able to harness it and use it to focus on subjects and topics that I want.

Diet

I didn't eat enough calories today - only around 2,000.  I wasn't all that hungry and on some occasions, didn't know what to eat.  I found myself not looking forward to eating.  In addition, it's pretty difficult to consume the amount of calories that I require.  I think I need to eat more caloric dense foods such as nuts and oils.  Maybe supplement with flax seed oil.

Before Photos